Two Weeks Of Procrastination

Today was the third day of my two-week long testweek. You might be wondering: 'Sjoukje, why are you writing a blogpost? Shouldn't you be reading about 'The Handmaid's Tale', written by Margaret Atwood, the book that has been staring at you for the past twenty minutes?'

Well, let me tell you. I have always enjoyed test weeks (I mean: three hours or less of school per day and you don't really have to study because it's so much you can't actually study) and I am also enjoying these two weeks as well. And that is what worries me.

Everybody around me has been so stressed out, and I have been trying to stress myself out as well. All everybody seems to talk, think and even dream about is school and don't get me wrong, I have my concerns as well (I've never been good at maths and I believe I'm a bit behind with my art history classes as well) but I don't seem to be able to live up to the stress levels everyone around me has reached. That concerns me - am I too relaxed about all this? Am I doing to little?

Or is everybody around me going crazy and am I the sane one?

The terrifying thing is, that I will find this out in June. I am in my final year and I have so many plans for next year (read: July) and all those dreams and actual plans would be shattered if I failed this year.

Final years are terrifying. If I'd be the master of schools, or even the principal of a school (I don't really know who decides about test weeks et cetera but imagine me being that actual person) I'd cancel every exam- and test week. If the student is doing well during the year, if grades are sufficient, why would you make a person go insane by letting him/her study for huge tests, trying to fit (in my case) 6 years of school into his/her head in only one night (or, longer, for the people who are more enthusiastic and motivated than me)?

Too bad I am not that person. 'The Handmaid's Tale' has stopped staring, it is now screaming at me to pick him up and I think I will have to: it's 22:43h and I want to go to sleep in about one hour. I hear my phone screaming from behind me: 'Don't forget about me! You downloaded the Netflix app! Mad Men, Sjoukje, Mad Men!' - my phone is more persuasive. At least, that is what I tell myself.


  1. I agree so much with not having exams! From personal experience it's so heartbreaking when you've got straight A's in a class and you go to do the exam and you're not 100% and then your final mark is terrible! So happy my degree doesn't have exams tho!! Em xx

  2. In all honesty: be grateful for your low personal stress level! Let a person who is the worst at handling stress tell you that. I have always freaked myself out more than the stress from outside has - I basically made everything ten times worse. The outer stress isn't decreasing after school and I can tell you not freaking out would be the better and healthier choice. In general you probably shouldn't think 'I don't need to learn, I'm perfect at everything' but if you can estimate how much you need to learn and then do that without freaking out, that's the best thing that could happen to you!
    Lots of love and good luck for all of your exams!

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  5. You've been reading The Handmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood?! I read it a few months ago and I absolutely loved it! It was sooo cool! I have really important exams in just a month and I don't know why I'm still blogging honestly....ahaha

    xx Bash | Bash Says Hey | bloglovin'

  6. Completely relatable. Right now Tess of the d'Urbervilles and Le Père Goriot are staring at me, and although my exams are in one month, I'm blogging, watching videos, painting and sleeping around (oops)! I'm just so happy I have a long Easter weekend ahead to catch up on things!
    Marianne :)

  7. Good luck with the tests!