My 2015

Years fly by so incredibly terribly scarily quickly. I don't really attach importance to new years because when banging fireworks announce the beginning of January, I won't be a new person all of a sudden - yet the beginning of a new year always makes me stop. Stop and think about what I've accomplished in the past year, stop and wonder about what the new year will bring me. I don't create lists of new year's resolutions anymore because I never ever started working out more or working harder or relaxing more - I'll see what kind of goodness the new year brings me.

2015 has been an exciting year in my still quite short little life. I graduated from high school and finally didn't have to defy the building I hated so much - and especially the atmosphere in it - 5 days a week anymore. A long summer break followed - a summer break in which I packed boxes, so so many boxes, drove to Amsterdam with my parents and put together a table and chairs and a closet in a tiny room which would soon be 'home'. It didn't feel like home for a long time, though, but that feeling gradually changed - and after almost 6 months I can finally say that I feel good in my new house.

2015 has been important for me on a personal level as well. I have always been a quiet girl and shyness and sometimes even shame of who I was came with being quiet. I have become so much happier with the person I am in the past few months - I have finally stopped wishing for a personality that would make me cooler or more spontaneous or more social and I am now content with the Sjoukje who loves books and likes to write and sometimes stares into the distance for a bit too long and thinks a lot and can be extremely enthusiastic about very simple things as well. 

I met many people who bring out the best in me. People to whom I don't have to apologize when I stop to take one (or a hundred) photos, people who don't think I'm weird when I say a dozen things that make sense in my mind but not so much when formulated as words, and people who almost are just like me. And that is nice, so comfortably nice.

When I look back at 2015 I see a happy year. A year of misfortunes, obviously, events and things I don't discuss on my blog or in general. But where I let misfortunes overshadow the beautiful moments in the past, I look back at the past 12 months with a content feeling. I hope 2016 will bring me even more beauty: more easy afternoons with people I feel comfortable being around, more beautiful experiences that make me feel more like me, and more moments of being able to sit down and realize that my life isn't that bad at all. I hope for beautiful books, pleasing photos to which I can look back with a smile once I'm a shrunken little grandma, for fits of laughter but also for moments of absolute and comfortable silence. 


  1. Great "terugblikje" (yes? ;) haha) on 2015! I also hope that 2016 brings you SO MANY beautiful people, opportunities, events, etc! You are a wonderful person and I'm happy to have "met you"!!! MUCH LOVE Zalige Kerstfeest en gelukkig nieuwjaar! <3333

    1. Hi there Stephanie! Love the little Dutch touch to this post! Terugblikje is the right word, hah! Thanks a lot for the lovely wishes and I hope your Christmas and 2016 will be amazing as well! <3

  2. Wat een fijne post<3 Ik doe ook nooit aan goede voornemens omdat ik die toch niet houd, maar ik ben wel heel benieuwd wat 2016 zal brengen. Gelukkig nieuwjaar alvast!

  3. Glad you have come into your own! Who knows what the new year will bring! Happy holidays! :)

  4. I loved to read your text so much, you can't even imagine! You made me reflect on my year!

  5. Such a lovely post. I think it's a great idea to look back on the year content, instead of any negative feeling. I think I need to try that too.

    Amber | y a c h t s m a a n

  6. This was such a lovely post to read, I agree that even though unfortunate things can happen it's important to not let those things overshadow the good in our lives. I also don't set new year's resolutions because I prefer to just see where the wind takes me and work on self-improvement daily :)

  7. I went through that too with my personality! I'm so glad to hear you're happy with who you are because not everyone can be loud and overly out going. Have a great new year Sjoukje! xxx

  8. My 2015 was extremely similar; an embracing of my introverted -- slightly odd, a little bit offputting personality -- and a lot of self realizations I am extremely thankful for. I'm glad that, through the misfortunes and darker side of 2015, you've found something to look back upon and be thankful for.

    I'm never one to be excited for the new year, but through the turbulence with which I surfed for the first 10 months of 2015, I'm way too excited to zoom towards 2016.

    Wishing you all the best, Sjoukje. Cheers to books and writings and new beginnings. <3

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  9. Aw this is such a lovely post! I like how you reflect back on things and aim to grow, rather than change completely :) Happy New Year!!

    Style Sunrise☀


  10. Such a lovely post! I totally agree with you! We should give more importance to the daily resolutions, not new year's resolutions. We don't have to wait for the next year to make something that we really want.
    Happy Holidays :)

  11. I hope you have a new great year ahead of you! <3

  12. Ben het echt met je eens wat betreft het eerste stukje...! Jaren vliegen zó voorbij! En eigenlijk maakt het geen verschil of het nou 31 dec of 1 jan is, maar toch is het altijd zo'n moment om bij zulke dingen stil te staan! Klopt echt..!!

  13. Amazing post! Loved it

  14. "people who don't think I'm weird when I say a dozen things that make sense in my mind but not so much when formulated as words"
    I love this so much! I wish you all the best for 2016, even more love and acceptance and beauty in the small things! :)
    Lots of love! Isa